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Month: April 2011

Marge Next Door

by Molly Gaudry

Nearing forty and not once ever an orgasm with a man inside me and I read the magazines and know what this means: there is nothing wrong with me; I’m no less woman than Marge next door who in the summer my husband Steve and I hear through our open windows on the second floor; I’m somewhere in that five to ten percent (but how can that be all?) of women who have never experienced orgasm from intercourse but got pregnant anyway. (more…)

Muslin

by Lydia Copeland

I stab myself on the lemon tree. I’m after Sweet Peas, the pink one in the red clay along the bank where the kitchen scraps are tossed three times a day. “Here, Tom!” says Ma, and the cats come bouncing from beneath the house or from inside the boat that sits in the sunny part of the yard. I squeeze my finger until a globe of blood swells out.

There are flowers on the velour of the couch, golden and orange like the height of summer. Aunt Livy nurses Little Joe there, while Big Joe sleeps in the guest room where the blue curtains blow in the air conditioning vent and the shelves of pickles turn mushy in their jars.

Pop and his boys swing golf clubs, hit balls off the car jack and into the dry creek bed, where I used to pour kettles of water wishing it would rain and the creek would run again. Wild onions on my jeans and dirt, the curl of new leaves in the garden. It’s summer, but I always picture fall and winter and burning garbage piles, brick chimneys. Pop’s words like butterscotch around the dove house. All the men stoking the fire and us cousins sleeping on the carpet by the hearth all night, watching the kenneling split and crack and glow toward ash. Eyes closed while the walls creak in the wind.

Pop gives Ma’s injections in the bedroom with the door closed. I want to see. It is part of my fear of needles. The door from there has been removed or perhaps it was never there. Ma wears a hat. It is red and hand knit. Pop holds her arm steady. He keeps her supplies in the dresser drawer. She has a baby doll in there as well that looks like a real baby.

Pop smells whiskery, like Listerine and aftershave and car engines, like the orange and blue Gulf Gas Station ring that keeps the key to the bunk house where more relatives live. A husband and wife, newlyweds. They sleep in a skinny bed with tools hanging on the walls and a film of motor oil over everything. They have piles of mail on tables and bicycle chains and discarded books from the library. Dante and Bluebeard, the Clue in the Diary, the Wind in the Door.

There are apples and chocolate snack pies in a bowl on the kitchen table. The aunts embroider there. They knit baby socks and wear Harley Davidson t-shirts and jeans. They talk about their bosses, some lady in line at the bank, a rude driver. The newlyweds have matching chain wallets. The husband has a mustache, is rail thin. The wife’s hair is like Tenille’s of the Captain and Tenille.

I sneak around, watching the aunts mother their babies, someone slicing an onion over a pot of water, the gray cats through the bedroom window walking in the garden. Some afternoons I see Ma rocking that baby on the edge of the bed and whispering into its muslin face, its Christening gown like the sway of a candle flame.

Outside I see the daytime moon, and it is faint as a fingerprint. My cousins have up-turned the biggest rocks and removed all the Sow bugs. The land is damp and red, and the trees feel wet to the center.

I put my finger in my mouth and suck and lick until the blood is gone. It is easy to make it go away, like rolling out dough, like pulling plums out of pies.


Lydia Copeland’s stories have appeared in Dzanc’s Best of the Web 2010, The Rose Metal Press Field Guide to Flash Fiction, Glimmer Train, The Mississippi Review and others. She works at a library in Manhattan and lives in New Jersey with her husband and son.

“I want to see,” our narrator explains, the only time we are handed “want” directly. Is “want” hidden or quieted in the story? Can you describe the process, what it was like for you, of discovering what it is that this narrator wants?

In the case of this story the narrator’s wanting is purposefully quieted. She is an observer. An observer of aunts, unlces, cats, cousins, all the many spaces of her extended family’s life. I had hoped to make her desires as subtle as possible, partly to show more than tell but also to prevent her wants and desires from interfering with the carryings-on of the other characters in the story. I wanted the narrator to be a vehicle that gives the reader a glimpse into this family.

So, what the narrator wants is quieted, but the yearnings of other characters I think are very present through the narrator’s observations. The Grandfather doesn’t want his wife to be sick, doesn’t want to give her daily injections, and his wife has some wants of her own that I tried to reveal with the baby doll she keeps in her room. There is a great desire for these two characters to be surrounded by their children and grandchildren. The house is quite literally overflowing with life: babies nursing, children sleeping in floors, uncles in bedrooms, more aunts and uncles in the bunk house, which has been converted into living quarters. Not to mention all the cats running around outside and living under the house. No one in this story wants to be alone.

But then, the narrator has a sort of detached aloneness. She sleeps in the floor with the rest of the cousins and is a participant in the goings-on of this house, but mostly she wanders around by herself listening to conversations and taking everything in.

This whole story came to me in the span of about twenty minutes and then I spent the next couple of days tweaking things and rearranging paragraphs. But even though this story just poured out onto the page for the most part, I was still aware of that little girl feeling that the narrator must have felt being present in a house full of adults, that feeling of wanting to be grown up and wanting talk and act like the adults around her, to sit at the table with them. She spends the story watching her aunt nurse a baby, watching the aunts embroider and knit and talk about their terrible bosses, watching the uncles and grandfather swing golf clubs, wanting to watch her grandmother’s injections and perhaps wanting to be what she perceives as brave. When writing this piece that feeling of wanting to be an adult and the perceived confidence that comes it is what the narrator seemed to want to me.

Little Dog

by Sherrie Flick

Ten years, the stubby stone candle holders are a clock on our kitchen tabletop. The little dog running laps at our feet, the second hand. Our chairs scrape. We pull them back, scoot them in. Flick a match, spark the wicks, and the wispy wax of all the years past becomes a hazy measurement of us. (more…)

I ♥ My Wife

by Carol Guess

After you left my hair darkened and my lips turned the color of your favorite lipstick: red-on-red, no hint of pink. I put things in boxes and numbered the boxes. Then I drove all that math across town, past the tracts. (more…)

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